Jz A NoTe~

Yup~Don't worry, this won't be a LONG post. Just a very short one to express my gratitude to someone who I realized I love and miss terribly.

The person in question is my 'big wife' a.k.a Ms SHS....Or should I start calling her Mrs L**? Haha...Anyway, I really realised that whenever I feel sad or depressed, the first person who pop in my mind is her. I will have the extreme urge to call her and just tell her everything. Just by listening to her voice will calm me. Due to recent events *ahem*, I find myself calling her again. And when I heard her voice its like everything just started flowing out--worries, sadness, happiness and all that commotion. I can say that she is one of my best best friends who always beside me and support me. And for that I really am grateful, although I can't begin to tell her how grateful I am~

She's like the ultimate friend in my heart that whenever I listen to her voice I will become happier and calmer...Her advice always helps too~Aiyo~I admire LZK for having her loh~He is the luckiest man in the world man~HAHA~Oh god, I hope she doesn't kill me when she reads this...Anyway, she is really really the 'bestest wife' that any 'man' can hope to get lar~>_< Maybe its because we share the 'husband-wife' thingy that makes her have a radar which can automatically tune in to my frequency~Hmm...What kind of wave will that be? (OMG, read too much Physics until PITCHAR-ED liao~!) Also, it may be because we already 'stay together' for 2 long years in school that she understands me so well and vice versa. As she so dear a friend to me I must say that I really really miss her nowadays...

Haha, I can already start imagining her face when she reads this post....Haiyo~'Lao Po' dun feel awkward or paiseh lar~And don't scold me nuh~>_< But I will never know if she does read my blog as she NEVER leaves comments for anyone...She is a cute and weird person who writes a blog which the address nobody knows and then just reads it herself. Yup, numerous times I have asked for her blog's address but she just smiles and says it is just a fun thing for her to read....=_="

Anyway~A BIG THANK YOU and Love You and MISS YOU SO MUCH~!!! to my darling 'wife'--Ms. SHS~

P.S: Don't be mad for me at writing MUSHY things about you nuh~You so good you won't hunt me with a butcher knife one I think....Also, Mr LZK, I have no intent of snatching Ms. SHS from you so you also needn't kill me~The LOVE is a family-friend kind of thing~HAHA~

P.S 2: I am back from my 3 day 2 night stay in Johor~I will be updating my blog about it the next time~I will be putting up pictures~!!

I Can'T TaKe ThE NAGGING~

I know that I haven't updated my blog in a while (two months actually...=_="), but still, there's a good reason (I think...) for my inefficiency. It's all because I was busy recently (Forgot what I'm busying bout....Too many things...O_O) so I haven't been able to update my blog.

But actually...This is the FOURTH time I am typing this post...Let's see...The first time, my computer ran AMOK and automatically shut down. Second time, I forgot to save. Third time, I accidentally pressed 'Esc' and closed the whole tab. So...It seems that even the higher power doesn't want me to update my blog.=_="

But still, here I am, typing feverishly as I must say that I am forced to do so. Yup, FORCED.Wanna know why? Cuz a particular person by the name Ms. Heng YW nags me every single day I don't update my blog. To shut her up, I decided that this is definitely worth it...Or I think I might be DEAF before I turn 20...

Anyway, here are the recent events in my life...

On my EXAM:
HELL. Yup, this is the only word that I can find to describe my exam. Other words just can't seem to potray it as well...Anyway, this really is a very hell-ish exam. For my PA, I duno what I am writing in my essay and it all seems like a jumble of words to me. For PA paper one, I really duno want to choose which which answer..Why do they have A, B, C, D by the way?? For Maths, I find T2 to be ok but honestly, all the careless mistakes I made in T1 makes me wanna do bang my head on something...And Chemistry..Ugh, I think I am still drowning in the antimony pentachloride question...And now to Phyics...I could already visualize dear Mr. Lim's face as he hands out my exam paper. The dissappointment would be evident. Haiz, just think about it...Originally a 100 marks student dunno fall till what mark...Hope I can just go jump of the building or pull a 'Happy Tree Friends' stunt with my pen...But I know all these failures are my own fault...(With the exception of PA Paper 2 as that @#*& teacher din teach us a DAMN thing...)...And I know that it's because of my laziness that makes me take these test with so much fear. But the hardest part is knowing that you could do better and yet you didn't even bothered to try...Haiz...But being the overly optimistic person I am, I vow to strive for better results next time~!! Learn from my own mistakes and then move forward rather than feel sorry for myself. Gambate~!!

On my LIFE:
My life is still so-so. But I am quite busy recently as I am involved in quite a lot of things. But I find that even though I am very tired by the end of the day, I still find it a very memorable day to have. However, it seems that my 'parental' side has come out again. There are just that few friends that I find myself unable to stop worrying about. I know, I know, some of you might say that I have already cared past the point of sacrificing myself but I just can't help it. Knowing that they might be crying somewhere silently or forcing a smile on their faces makes me worry even more...Haiz. That's why I try to do the best I can to be at their side and help them. A simple gesture or simple sentence may sometimes save a person from falling into depression...And besides, I am their friend and that's what friends are for right? To those who had enrolled themselves in my 'counseling session', I really don't need another apology or you feeling guilty for taking up my time and telling me all those so-called-depressing things. You all already have enough on your minds. And I am very glad that you chose to confide in me. That's why I don't mind a single bit for you calling me at ungodly hours or make me miss my class..etc. Read my lips/words when I say that I don't F***ING mind. So don't let me hear another apology or I will really go berserk...>_<...Besides, I SOOO matured, you sure want ask me for advice mar~O_O *EVIL LAUGH*

On OTHER things:
First things first~My dear Ms.Heng aka Ah Miao aka TING TING has a NOT-SO-SECRET ADMIRER~!!! Hahahaha...There is this person which we like to call by 'bell sound' which keeps stalking our dear Ms. Heng. Notice the word 'STALK'. It seems that the person has taken a liking to be by Ah Miao's side and no matter what drastic measures that we think of to PRY her away from the person, it all just proves to be FUTILE. That's why Ah Miao is stucked with wanting to bang her head on the wall, screaming in frustration or just ignoring the person..(Trust me, the third option will be close to impossible to succeed...)

Secondly, I am going to JOHOR for the finals of the elocution competition....It's tomorrow actually...I am going to board the first flight(6.45 AM) and then will remain in KLIA until 10 sth and then board another plane to Johor. I am feeling quite nervous. This is the first time I entered a Kebangsaan level competition and thinking about the scenario gives me goosebumps. Besides that, this is my first time in an elocution competition and the first time I am going so far without my parents or siblings. Ugh~I can already feel the dread coming on me...Wish me luck lor~Hope I can succeed...A good motivation for me is the prize...Mr. Gan says its a few thousands...Woah~Just imagine what I can do with that money.

I think that's all I could think of to say~Until next time then~(Which I hope will be soon as Miao will surely start nagging me if I didn't update my blog...)

GAMBATE~AJA AJA FIGHTING~!!

P.S: Notice that I didn't use 'he' or 'she' but "the person" in writing Ah Miao's ADMIRER~Hmm....Guess what gender? >_< *LAUGHS MANIACALLY*

~Happy Family~(PART TWO)

Finally~~!! I am finally posting the second piece of ~Happy Family~Due to certain unforeseen circumstances (But mainly cuz I want to tease Miao so I din post it...*Evil Laugh*)before, I haven't been able to post it~Now, to continue with me 'family introduction'~

~My Son-In-Law~
SHE is my daughter's husband. Yup, it's a 'she', so you don't have to worried about your eyesight~She is a member of choir just like me and is the Naib Pengerusi~We were together as a group and entered Bakat Chung Hwa together for the past few years~She was always there and is a very best friend of mine~She is cheerful and cute but very short~>_<~She is also very popular de~Especially among those aunty uncles and those lower form students~She sings very very well~But she sometimes think too much too~Haha~Those in my family seem to have a tendency to think too much...Dunno why...She is also very good with my second wife and the three of us aways 'kisiao' together~Although you see her all cute and nice, she also can get very scary when she is angry.....Like become a totally different person...Trust me, you certainly don't want to be the person she is mad at....

And now, I must state the relationship that she has with my family besides being my daughter's husband. Okay, here goes: She is my daughter's husband. She is my affair. She was upgraded to the status of my third wife for a brief period. She is my second wife's wife. She is my housekeeper's sister. She and my second wife have a daughter and a son. The daughter and son are considered as my granddaughter and grandson.

Haha~Confused liao mar?? Also, she is called polar bear~She is now studying to be a nurse in UM~Hope she will graduate fast fast and go infect others with that cute smile of hers~Gambate yo~My darling son-in-law~!!

~My HouSeKeePeR~
My god~!!She has to be the most strongest short person that I know~!!I met her during Form 1 but it was not until Form 2 where we studied at the same class that we really got to become close friends...After becoming friends, we always kisiao together. She is quite short, has big eyes and wears spectacles. She is also very very white and has rosy cheeks. Whenever she gets mad or excited, her face become as red as tomato. Trust me, it really is THAT red. Besides that, I think this gal might have a bit of superhuman strength...Why? Because during our Form 2 years, whenever we play the fool and fight each other while sitting on the same chair, there was never ONCE that I managed to push her down the chairs...It was always me who got pushed down....ME!! Getting push down by a weak looking and small person...And I think I must have been TWICE her size...*SHIVERS*....Really--Never judge a person by looks alone....O_O"

Also, she is the person who always discuss with me things about books or movies, or animes or comics. It seems both of us have the same interest in this perticular area. Also, her house has a BIG cabinet with quite a number of books, which makes me always borrowing books from her~Sorry ya~P.Rung~She is also my number ONE food supplier during recess. She always come to my class and shares her food with me~*SOBS* Thank you so much~!!If it wasn't for you I might have starved to death dy~!!Besides that, she is also very good with my first wife~I must say she is kind of like the introducer between me and huey shenn....She also is my accomplice in teasing my STUPID cat~!!!*EVIL LAUGH*

Dear Pei Rung ar, you see I right such GOOD things bout you, while Ah Miao keep complaining about you didn't give her anything to eat~Can c I am the better person leh~~O_O~Therefore, next time you come back we both go *AHEM* Ah Miao nah~Wakakaka~~

P.S: Dun keep saying I din give you gaji leh~I so good liao mar....>_<.....Besides, you don't need me to feed you mar...Your shop got SOOO many breads and cakes~

~My CaT~
HAIZ. Really dunno where to start about this cat nih...(Too many weird+bad things to say until dunno how to put in words...>_<)...Hmm~Let's see, this is a very very sikong 'cat', who always think her status sipe high and likes to dismiss the fact that she was a STRAY my kind-hearted and pretty younger daughter picked up....Besides that, she also very like to scold my second wife as 'perempuan jalang' when it is very CLEAR that her status is lower than my second wife~Ah Miao ar~If I have to choose between Yenjie and you I sure choose her de nuh~~Wakakaka~Dun cry nuh~>_<~(Who call you write me so bad in your blog~??BLEK!!) Also, she like to pretend innocent and flutter her eyelids when she wants to deny something or wants something. She likes to 'seduce' people too...By 'seduce', I mean: Dragging her smelly and wearing stocking feet over your legs, using her SINFUL hands to grope and touch you and also hugging and throwing her so called "SEDUCTIVE" looks at you. Really~!!As if she thinks that by doing so will help her get the way she wants...Ah Miao ar, by doing so you only make other's value decrease nia...As your "Tidak BERNILAI" hands touch people will make others lose value de you know mar???

Also, this cat also very untruthful de....She ming2 ming2 is the wife of TKS but still dun want to admit it. But let me tell you something, by sitting behind her and TKS for a year and now sitting beside her, I can definitely say that these two not only "ada highway" but the highway already tar beautifully and with signposts erected nicely liao....But the both of them getting more and more daring liao I think..."Daring" in a sense of public display of LOVE and AFFECTION, also the NAME CALLING and the POKING and having FUN around one another, and also the sneaking GLANCES and the unforgettable moment of TRUTH where one party says "I LOVE YOU" to the other.......ETC. (OMG!!I am so getting KILLED for writing and publishing this....T_T) Anyway, what I was saying is they are getting along well, which makes me, as the head of the family, to feel very happy and relax about....But recently Ah Miao like very sexually frustated as she keeps groping me...O_O....And other people too....She seems to be having the "seven year itch" and is preying for VICTIMS....She seems to have found one by the special number of 21.19 liao....HAHAHAHA~~(Ah Miao~You know who I am talking bout rite?)Also, she now oso jalang want steal TKS's cousin, Zhen Jee....See? Such an annoying cat...

But to the brighter side of this cat of mine, she is a very straightfoward and nice person. She also quite caring de~But she is also a person who thinks too DAMN much....She is a karate-do champion who once represented our nation~She is also a person who appreciates friendship a lot and also someone who is quite responsible(....in a way...). She is also very rebellious and is said to be a very "BEBAS" person by Mr. Tan Ao and "the happiest girl in school' by Mr. Yean L.H.

You see!! I write so many good things about you....>_<.....So dun kill me nuh~I finally got write about you liao mar~!!>_<

~My DoG/My CaT's "HUBBY"~
As he INSISTS that I write about him, claiming that he is ALSO a part of the family, I am going to tell you bout Mr. TKS~I must have known him for about 8 to 9 years now, but it wasn't until Form 2 that we got more along. He is a nice person with a good heart but sometimes his mouth just tends to blurt things out unexpectedly. This is the main cause, I think, for the rivalry before and also making Ah Miao bu shuang him in the first place...But now he has really changed quite a lot liao and I really salute him for willing to make the change....But he still likes to pretend sak....=_="....He is voted as monitor for two years in a row liao showing that he actually quite responsible...I say 'quite' cuz he still not that good lui~>_<...But sometimes this person really very kiam pak for his attitude and doings~But he is still a very good friend of mine~A bit goofy at times but quite an ok person. He is also very scared of being poked but still want hand-itch go poke other people...Making him to become the victim in the end...=_="....Nowadays, whenever I see him, Ah Miao and Zhen Jee hanging around each other, I will immediately have this thought: "WOW. Really look like family." (Damn...I am SOOOOOOO getting killed for writing this...) Also, he is like the bitter love prince (...or toad..?) that always faces a wall in relationships...Haiz...Pity you lar Siang~If you somehow manage to read his blog, you will find it filled with bitter complaints and heart rending memories~Really, can't you write more cheerful things??!! Also, he likes to sing very much but somehow whenever he sings, Ah Miao will look like she is getting tortured or getting killed (it depends on what song he sings....>_<).....

P.S: I can't say too many good things about him as I am afraid his head and ego will become so big he can't walk or even stand~

That's it~!!The second part of "My Family"~Hope you managed to get a quite clear picture of my 'slightly' dysfunctional 'Family'~

No complaints bout me not writing about you two liao noh~Mr.TKS and Ms. Heng?? >_<

P.S: I was having a bit of a headache when I wrote the Miao and TKS part, so there MIGHT be parts that are merely my IMAGINATION~O_O......So dun believe everything nuh~Miao and TKS are just "friends" (or so they say.....But I find room for improvement...>_<)....But it MIGHT also be that I am writing this cuz I dun want to be killed or hurt badly by some people that I MIGHT have mentioned in this blog...(Notice I used a lot of 'MIGHT'.....)

I am now "Pitchar EeWWW~!!"

Haiz...Is it just my imagination, or are my nicknames getting more and more??Now with the newly added "eewwwww" behind "pitchar", I have officially received a new name....Really, do these 18 year-olds have to just pick every response I make and then use them against me?!Haiz....Also, I keep having a feeling that I am always getting teased...Yeah, yeah, so what if I am smaller than a year by all of you?Doesn't mean I could be teased...=_="......But it was all just friendly gestures and quite good fun though~>_<~Hahaha... And there is still that 'Tidak BERNILAI" person who keeps insisting she is "TidakTERNILAI"......You know I mean u rite??She keeps sikong she very priceless and wanna pretend she like the "extra virgin olive oil" but in reality........Eeeww~Hahahahahahaha~I just joking lar~Dun get mad nah~I know u very 'PURE' lui lar~But I must say I am very glad to c u n ur dear hubby a.k.a Mr.Tan K.S getting along so well lar~It really makes me wanna cry..*SOBS*....Also, if you two din realise, you two got a lot in common, so you two should be able to become good good friends if you want. Let's see.....

1. Both of you can't eat seafood....Except fish of course....
2. Both of you always like to kacau people~>_< style="color: rgb(51, 51, 255);">Conclusion: Both of you should definitely get more closer lar~Dun shy shy de.....Hahahahaha....I wait for GOOD NEWS nuh~Ah-Ms. Sikong-Sendiri-Tidak-Ternilai-Miao ar~You dun 'fake dead' nah.....Ppl TKS edi so open bout ur relationship liao u mar accept lar~O_O

Now, on to more relevant matters-->My recent school life:

As editor to this year's majalah CH, I must say it really isn't an easy matter....Have to keep going to look for teachers and oso sort things out.....Haiz....So busy in school until always go home and sleep a lot...Make my mum wonder wat happen to me nia....Also, I am very very paiseh to say that I very behind on the recent teachings...Let me enlighten all of you by wat I mean by saying "BEHIND"=

Chemistry:
I already dunno drowned in wat chemical edi....Our dear sir teach with such god-speed that everything seems like a blur to me....And god-speed+not attentive during classes=empty chemistry info....And watching as Big Bro and Second Bro so attentive and always discussing Chemistry just make me feel more wanna go bang myself on the wall or dig a DEEP HOLE and bury myself and never come out again....And whenever I do find myself listening to him, it would be more like staring at him with big question marks atop of my head, and whenever he whip around with the cheery and easy-going lopsided smile and ask us: "....., bukan?" or "Do you understand?", I felt as if I could die of SHAME....!!!
Haiz....My dear lovely sir, Mr. Ng, I really really like you to bits but I am so ashamed of not keeping up with your classes~~!!!*CRIES* I swear I AM going to bring my Chemistry back to the standard you are teaching~YOSH!!!

Physics:
I think I must have been thrown out of the circular motion as I dun have enough centripetal force.....Ever since starting Chapter 4(And we are now in Chapter 7 liao...), I seem to be caught in a daze whenever I am having Physics class....The main reason for my falling back is due to the 'holy-than-thou' Mr.Yam who insists on me going for elocution competition...And after all the hard training and rushing of script, and sitting in Mr.Yam's car for maybe 2 hours hearing him preaching while worried to death about my safety, and going to ulu-place called Bukit Jawa only to find out I am the ONLY competitor so that means I am the so called Champion...And now I have to proceed to state level again!!!Ugh...Curse you, Mr.Yam. Anyway, due to certain unforeseen circumstances and other things, I am now still lost, going round and round the roundabout while others have already taken a trip to the moon/sun to study gravitational force and then back again....=_="
Haiz again, really, I should be stoned. Having such a handsome Physics teacher and I still can't pay attention....Someone, please kill me!!
Note to self: Besides Chemistry, I still have to brush up on my PHYSICS....I AM a PHYSICS student damn it~!!

Mathematics T1:
OH! That's my only thought whenever I see her. I must say, she sure doesn't disappoint our expectations by wearing the most unimaginable clothes ever. There was this once instance where she wore a very "beautiful" pure bright red with flashes of white dress/shirt/blouse? thing that had me blinking every three seconds I looked at her....Ugh...The horror....Anyway, I must say this is my most well kept up to date subject...Due to her recent outburst which led to her new interest in checking our homework, I have been diligently doing AND finshing her homework...Therefore, I guess flashy clothes and 'unique' personality sure helps me in my T1....

Mathematics T2:
Ugh....My maths T2....Nothing more could be said. Although it's not as bad as Chemistry where I don't know even an inch of what's he is talking bout, I know Maths T2, with the help of tuition of course, but I must still groan when T2 is mentioned...Why? Cuz....I think I haven't done her homework for more like a century liao...And my homework is now the same height as Mount Everest I think...(Although my Physics homework seems to be on the same level too...) Anyway, another note-to-self: FINISH T2 HOMEWORK~!!!

MUET:
DAMN. There is simply no other word to start describing my MUET classes. This is the class where I could sleep through without feeling even the remotest feeling of guilt. Of course, being the well disciplined person I am(AHEM...) I prefer to just stare blankly at Mr.Yam or just play the fool with Ms. Heng. Anyway, I am definitely not going to listen to his bulls***......Because with every single period, he just seem to manage to turn and twist the subject until he has the opportunity to start preaching....And when he isn't quoting from the Bible, he would discussing WEIRD things....Like that particular period where he shows great interest in sodomy and starts discussing about it...My gainings from that class: Sodomy comes from the 'sodom'. I could gape for quite long....Never before have I seen so many people taking the slightest interest in MUET class....
So, as you could plainly see, there is really no other way to approach this matter except the word: DAMN.
Haiz.....As Mr.Yam would quote, and I quote: May God save my MUET.....

Haiz...There you have it, my recent 'progress'.....That and coupled with a few things that happen recently, I must say I am really drowned...Mentally and Physically...Therefore, I must say that this holiday will certainly bring me some good to catch a breath and start catching up~YOSH! Gambate~Fighting~!!

P.S: I hope I won't get murdered by Ms.Heng and Mr.Tan when they see this blog....But if you were to find me stuffed and all bloodied in an alley somewhere.....You would know who to look for....O_O"

《许诺》～

最近疯狂的把裴勇俊和李智雅主演的《太王四神记》给看完了。。。这套剧真的超好看的，只不过结局不是我想要的完美好结局。。。T_T 虽然如此，但是我还是超爱这部剧，又加上它的音乐又是我最最爱的久石让所写的。啊。。。那音乐实在太太太好听了～！！剧里有一首叫做《许诺》的歌，是一位叫Jun Seo 的韩国歌手唱的。由于我超爱它的歌词，所以便把它放上来了～希望你们也喜欢～

许诺：

即使你無言以對

我也毫不在意

只要能注視著你

即使不能擁有你

甚至不能觸摸你

悲傷冰冷滿怀 但我依然會默默忍受

不知道你會在哪裡

也不知道你過得好不好

總是牽掛著你的每一天

每當月光灑滿的斷腸夜

我思念著你辗转難眠

如果有來生

希望上天能成全
我們今世有緣無份的愛情..

即使不在你身邊

我也會在你的背後

甘願做一個孤獨的影子

即使想回頭

也不可以回頭

連幸福承諾都不能給你的我

求你千萬要遠離

一步 兩步也好

求你先離我而去

我的雙手 還有我的雙腳

小心不要被他們糾纏

如果有來生

希望上天能成全

我們今世有緣無份的愛情

上天啊 請替我隱藏我的真愛吧

風兒啊 吹散我的傷痛吧

不要讓他發現我流淚 求你了

啊～久石让(Joe Hisaishi)的歌真的超好听的～想听的跟我拿吧～真的超爱他～>_<

P．S：希望出《太王四神记2》，但要有好结局的。。。

ThiS WeeK~

Here is a brief description of me 'eventful week'....(Ranging from 6 July 2008 to 10 July 2008)

Sunday:
Started my job as pengawas. Duty at 4 sc 2. Keep saying "Don't talk", "Shh!", "Be quite please." and "Please queue properly." until my mouth open and shut automatically. The effects of these words: Glares. Whispered scoldings. NOT whispered complaints. And more glares. After an arduous 20 so minutes, I went back to class and grumbled the whole first period. Similarly, Miao grumbled along with me. The rest of the day passed uneventfully.

The upside of this day: Found out that they are still normal people behaving like Sc 2 students. Realized got people of female gender which could act as if they are born like B****es. Realized the male population is getting more and more three-eight.

Monday:
Second day as pengawas. Still duty at 4 sc 2. When the students were supposed to line up in pairs along the corridor outside the class I found that there were 2 girls leaning against the class window and wall. They were slumping. When I asked them to queue, I got an unexpected response from one of the mean-looking girls: "I just got dumped." After loud grumbles and curses, I managed to make both of them to queue properly. But the four girls, which I would refer to 4B from now(I trust all of you know what B means), kept talking as if they haven't spoken before in their life. After repeated sayings of "Please don't talk." and "Be quite please.", I received an unexpected response. The girl which supposedly 'got dumped' muttered a not so silent: "If she asks me to stop talking and be quiet again I will hit her." I must say that the only thing refraining me from hitting her is my good-raising and will power. In that fleeting of a second, every single cell in my body seemed to tingle with inexpressible rage. After an agonizing 20 or so minutes, I went back to my class. This time, I didn't even bothered to start with grumbling, I shouted: "SHIT!! DAMN!! @#$%&*!!!! That B****!! No wonder she got dumped!!" And when Miao got back, she seemed as if she was in the same mood as me. After a period of her rambling, shouting and scolding, I found out that she was called 'dog' by a student. And thus, the whole class was forced to listen to me and Miao's violent outburst and fierce words. During a certain free period, I suddenly thought up an idea and I told Miao about it. "Hey, I think that if we go fight with them we will win nuh!" And so, we began to form plans of forming a "PENGAWAS PEK YAO GROUP". Needless to say, it's just meaningless thinking. And also, we passed the rest of the day gloomily.

The upside of this day: I have regained my sudden violent urge to hit someone. It has been lost since I entered Form 1, which was nearly 5 years from now. I found that I could muster the anger to hit someone which is of the same gender as mine. I found out I could say so many curses fluently. I found out that the only people acting like fools in that class is the 4B and the boys.

Wish of the day: I hope that gal...Oops...Sorry....Not gal, but a person of unknown gender(as IT is too violent to be a gal yet it wears skirt)...Ahem, I hope that IT never finds a BF or GF or anyone for that matter. Because only one poor EX-BF needs to suffer that much.

Tuesday:
Third day as pengawas. Suffered as much as first and second day. The 4B still acts as if they have no brains...Which really make me wonder if they are Sc 2 students? And the boys are still as animal-like as always. After glancing around, I began to wonder if I had been so unfortunate to get the school's loudest, noisiest, most insufferable class as my first class....But it was better as Ah Sir and Mdm Liew got pass by and miraculously, those seemingly no-brain students possessed the mental capacity to know that they have to act silent and good in the teacher's presence. Ah Sir said to me: "Hsieh Yie, don't let them be!! Scold them. Scold them hard! And if you have to, KICK them!!" Seriously, I am finding that a fascinating and appealing idea...Especially the 'kick' part...As it is my block's turn to duty that recess, I find myself exiting class earlier to have some food. Unfortunately, my actions were not fast enough as I was forced to throw away a good half of my nasi lemak since I have to start duty already...Ugh...My poor nasi lemak...After recess, I found myself thinking that I have such sinful hands from touching every girl's pocket....

The upside of the day: FINALLY, I am adapting. I found that many girls have empty pockets/only have tissue/only have cash/only have shilings in their pockets. Received a kind word from cute fellow pengawas~Met my second wife as she came to school~

Wish of the day: Hope that tomorrow's morning pengumuman will be short~

Wednesday:
Fourth day as pengawas. 4B are still that noisy but at least I can cope with it a bit. But GOD, are they irritating....Alas, my wish for SHORT pengumuman fell on deaf ears.....While I was silently mumbling 'Let it end...let it end...' in my heart, the teacher said that he will invite two students who won the state deklamasi BM thing to 'perform'...And my heart instantly sank. I know that they would not be so good as to stand there and listen. But this also confirms that I am really so 'FORTUNATE' to get the noisiest class of the whole school....When I am trudging back to class, Mdm Lew came and ask me how I was doing. I replied: "Ok....But they are really noisy!!!!". And we both laughed and joked about how I was like that before too...But honestly...I am not even up to the 4B's standard when I am Form 5....But it cheered me up~At night, I went to meet with me second wife. Miao, mashian and yoon keong also go. When I mentioned that my class is '4 sc 2', Yoon Keong immediately expressed a big "OH." And that cemented my belief that it is indeed the most difficult class to handle in the whole school...

The upside of the day: Unlike Miao, I don't have students asking me whether the girl who deklamasi sajak is beautiful or not as 4sc 2 has an excellent view of the balcony. I found out that they are indeed 4 sc 2 students as they are worrying about their English test and are frenziedly discussing literature. I am surprised that a person could move around that much and not fall down, but unlike Miao, I did not call her a cacing.

Wish of the day: Let tomorrow come earlier and I could be rid of this class~

Thursday:
Fifth day as pengawas. A very significant day as it is the last day I will guard that class. I was so happy that I even walked to the class happy and with a small spring in my steps. After the same routine of 20 minutes, I find myself in class exclaiming: "YES!!! I will not be guarding 4 sc 2 already~!!!" The whole day proceeded smoothly. I found that Miao was as thrilled as me. But now, we have to start worrying about next week's duty schedule....We are both praying we would not be as unfortunate as to get each others class....

The upside of the day: I was so happy that I am very attentive in Physics class and gained loads of knowledge. I am rid of 4 sc 2~!!

Wish of the day: Hope that I will get a good duty or a good class next week~

Small snippets of the week:
As new pengawas, we have a list of the old pengawas names that we have to ask them to sign before two weeks are over. And these few days we have been running around asking and begging for signatures. I must say some are very very good and helped us by signing. Some are a bit mischeivous and want us to do tasks. But others are just plain hateful and 'nge' as they just refused to sign. But it is pleasant to find out that there are more nice pengawas~YOSH! Hope that I will get all the signatures and won't have to do embarassing thing in meeting~!!

Benefits of this week:
I realized that my famed patience had been upgraded to god-like status as I could tolerate this class. I am more responsible and so is Miao. I managed to meet a lot of new people and am very happy for it~>_< _="">

Sayonara~My 'single' life......

"WHAT THE F***?!!"

This was my first response when I heard the words coming out from fellow classmate, ChunHui's mouth. His words:"...yiwen and you also become prefect..." kept passing through my mind like an endless mantra. I turned and looked at Miao a.k.a Yiwen a.k.a Mrs Tan beside me. On her face was the same shocked and disbelieved look which I assumed my face would be wearing at that same moment. For a mere second, we were silent. And then..."Hahahahahaha...No way that would be true lar~!!" "Yalor, you must have seen wrong lar...!!" With this response, we regained the fleeting moment of shining and sparkling hope in our eyes. Alas, that hope was brutally diminished when we were called for a briefing with the teachers in the prefect room. And again....

"HOLY SHIT! We really become pengawas?!"

To say me and Miao were confused and disoriented is the major understatement of the century.

And so, we went into the prefect room and got the briefing from the teachers. When I came out, Mr. Wong's words were forever stuck in my head:"...You must now behave like a pengawas, look like a pengawas, speak like a pengawas, walk like a pengawas...."

And when the words finally sink into my mind, my first thought was : I AM DOOMED. And i could pretty much see that Miao had the same words along mine in her mind too.

Really, me and yiwen?

We rarely do anything the 'pengawas' way.
1. We eat in class. (A LOT)
2. We play in class. (A LOT)
3. We talk in class. (A LOT)
4. We behave like three year-olds. (A LOT)
5. We play in the lab. (A LOT)
6. We study?--NEVER.

Conclusion: We are definitely NOT good students.

For example, have you ever seen two GOOD students throwing rubbers and ruler(for my part) at each other across the lab table? Also, have you ever seen GOOD students talk 'dirty' and play 'dirty'?(Exclusive for Ms Heng) In addition, have you ever seen GOOD students who simply don't do their homeworks and prefer to rushing or copying it in the mornings?

Answer to all those questions: ZERO.

As what I find myself repeatingly saying to Miao since we started Form 6: "Hey. I think both of us really might change what people think about Sc1 students..." And by saying that, I really mean: Hey, Miao ar, I think we both single handedly destroy whatever reputation and image of Sc1 that other people might have. And she couldn't have agreed more.

But now...And I quote: "Hasta la vista, my beautiful single life."

I am not getting married. But hell, being a pengawas is damn close to it already. My freedom to speak and eat is gone...GONE!! All those small moments of me and Miao sneaking pieces of food into our mouths from her beautiful and amazing and soon-to-be-useless compressible red tupperware would be gone forever. And so would the moments when we play the fool....(Which I really don't think I should describe in detail...It's too 'explicit' >_<)

Like what Miao said in her blog: GAME OVER.

And I agree with her whole heartedly.

The reality of this all still seems so surreal to me. And tomorrow I have to start my duty as pengawas already. And the horror of the uncertainties is making me squirm in my seat even as I am writing this. The fear and humiliation that may come scares me to death. And if that doesn't happen, I figure that I might starve to death sooner or later.

So before any of it happens and before I go mad, it's better to take the initiative right?

So, someone, ANYONE, please stab me.

P.S: One might visit Miao's blog and see her point of view on this matter.