Saturday, April 9, 2011

--Words--

I love reading, possibly much more than I love writing, or singing.

Words just have such a mysterious power sometimes. And if one is good enough, just mere sentences with the correct words and the correct way of writing can easily bring about much more influence than could possibly be imagined.

Words are powerful by itself, but used correctly, it just forms into a spectrum of brilliance that could either tease someone into bursting laughter, launch a person's mind into contemplation, or even move someone to tears.

To me, it's easy to say that I've experienced all three of the above scenarios, and much, much more, all in gratitude to the pleasure of reading, and taking in the words themselves.

It's not often that I find myself moved to tears over literature. But sometimes, you would just stumble across rare pieces of gem that just blows your mind, and sometimes, it just so happens that the words themselves convey such a brilliant story--picturing out the atmosphere, situations, moods, and tones so clearly--that before you know it, your heart is hammering in your chest and your eyes are burning but you just can't stop reading.

And in those cases, if a few tears are the price of reading such an amazing thing, then so be it.

And these are the ones that will stick with you long enough, leaving an imprint in your chest and mind and heart, burning in the raw amount of feelings and choking emotions that you experienced so deep into your soul, that even if you won't remember what the story was about, you will forever remember that you have once been moved to tears by words itself, and that will forever be a memory and feeling that you will cherish forever.

So you see, 'words' are really powerful things.

--The 'End' Is Near--!!

It's already April, and somehow, Time has once again passed swiftly by without even a breath of it's presence making itself known. It's a peculiar thing, time. Sometimes, you feel as if the minutes, hours and days just drag by, and you can't help but wish that time would speed up. But other times, when you're knee deep in piling stress and anxiety, you just wished that you had more time because bloody hell, how can I possibly finish this assignment/project/homework?!

And then there are the moments when time passes by without you even noticing it, the times which you spent enjoying yourself, and you just happened to take a glimpse at the watch and was taken aback by just how much time had passed.

It's as if the memory of me starting my second semester in Uni was just yesterday, and yet, now I find myself nearing the end of it, and I can't help but wonder where did all the time go?

I've vivid memories of myself stuck in numerous representations of the above three scenarios, and yet now that I really sit down and think about it, it's a wonder that I didn't feel the days slipping swiftly and quietly by--just toeing at the edge of my conscience and yet making me unable to fully comprehend that time, my time, is passing away in such a quick and sneaky manner.

And looking at the calendar now--ohwhatthehell, there is only barely one month until my BIG EXAM(!!!)--I have to mourn the loss of passed time. But like a lot of other things, what's gone cannot be reclaimed back, particularly something like time which is so abstract and yet real at the exact same time. In which this just really makes me want to sucker punch Time in the gut if it has a physical representation, because it has once again pulled one over me.

But I guess that I've got to take a major part of the blame itself, seeing how I've wasted away perfectly good and decent and USEFUL time just to squander it away on mindless hours of things that I can't even fully recall now....*cries*

Yet, like all things, there is still hope, and with this one month, I do hope that I will be able to fully utilize it in the face of the coming ordeal, which is six MAJOR test in one row.

It really seems like a kind of make or break situation, which just churns my stomach and blur my senses with something very much like a 'healthy' mixture of panic and fear.

*crosses fingers* Do hope that everything will turn out okay....!!! O____O!

Thursday, March 24, 2011

Something NEW~

It's been ages since I've updated both of my blogs, and to be quite honest, I've nearly forgotten the mere existence of this blog myself...! However, a sudden fleeting thought of nostalgia and interest had me recalling the link to my blogs (and surprisingly I could remember them without fail...), and a few quick taps of the keyboard had me scrolling through both of my blogs and laughing at the date of my last updated entry.

It's amusing how terribly good I am at procrastinating/abandoning things, and the little niggle of guilt on the fact that I've not persevered on is like a sharp blow of ice-cold conscience.

And so, this brings me to re-reading through all of the previous entries in this blog, and imagine my surprise when I realized that there are so many things that I've forgotten in this period of time. The memories are all precious to me, and yet they've somehow been stashed away in a deep, dark corner in my mind, and it wasn't until I've read the words and smiled at the stories that I've written in this blog that I remembered them with such a vivid clarity.

And that, I suppose, is the advantage of blogs. It's as if you're capable of taking out a memory and turning them into words -- forever immortalizing the scene/feelings/thoughts with a single blog entry. It's surely a wonderful thing, and it's brilliant in a sense that you'll always have the chance to recall them back just by reading back your own blog.

So, in a sudden burst of interest, I've decided to change the entire look of my blog. A fresh look for a fresh beginning~!

I'm rather fond of this new design~ I somehow find it more aesthetically pleasing, and the effort to re-new something that you once loved and had conveniently forgotten is always a pleasant feeling~!

Until next time then, in which I will talk more about my recent life, and in which I think the update would be fairly soon~ <3

P.S: To my beloved friends that I've sorely missed and have stuck through the years with my hot-and-cold + comatose/near death updating-blog-behaviour, I thank you sincerely for staying with me through all the thick and thin moments~ XOXO *hugs and kisses*

Friday, September 24, 2010

...New Life...?

Today, 24th September is my third day in the University of Nottingham, Malaysia Campus (fondly called UNMC by the people here), and to tell the major truth, it is that I still don't feel quite at home with it.

I haven't made any new friends yet, it's quite sad to say, but I bumped into a former form-mate of mine--Qi Yan, or known more as Bob of the Bio class. The fuzzy feeling of meeting someone from the same place as you and which you know and have common ground with is such a pleasant feeling that it definitely did help to take the edge away from the lurking loneliness in the background.

I still remember how at home I felt at Chung Hwa, with the exception of my first month over there back when I was in Form 1. And every time I walked into it for these past few years, I've never felt out of place, because it was a place that has become a part of my life in the past. But when I went back recently to take the school mag, the awkward feeling of standing out and feeling oddly uncomfortable made itself known, and for the first time in seven years, I understood that Chung Hwa could no longer be treated as a second home, the feeling of belonging had faded, and while I still missed it and will cherish the memories dearly, and might even hope to return to visit it sometimes, I understood then and there that it is time to move on from the place.

UNMC should by right become my second home now, but I guess it still feels so unfamiliar and strange to me that I can't feel that ease yet. And hopefully, when my lectures starts next Monday, I will have met a few more people and even made a few more friends, and like how it was during Form 1, I guess I would eventually progress to be able to roam the hallways and buildings with practiced ease and comfort.

But for now, I still have my reservations, and while I am not madly home-sick and crying my eyes out or losing appetite or some other weak stuff that a person who left home for the first time should be doing, I know with an aching dull to my heart that I miss my house and parents and cats back in KB, and I miss all my dear and wonderful friends that I have made over the years.

Hopefully, in the near future, I might feel more at home.

But for now, I end this post with a small smile and a longing to eat Chung Hwa canteen's Yong Tauhu, while sitting at my study table and typing fervently away to vent my frustrations...

Until next time then, adieu~!

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

New Blog!

I have a new blog!!

The address: http://fish-hobbies.blogspot.com

This blog will be dedicated mostly to reviews on movies, musics, pictures, dramas and such~So if any of you have interest you can check it out~!

And yeah, yeah, I know I have been neglecting this blog, but that's because I have nothing to update...XD

So, please check out my new blog!

And don't worry, I won't be abandoning this blog too~!

Monday, February 8, 2010

Things I Missed...

CNY is near and I am going back to SP in the next few days. I will probably be staying till end of February. And although the prospect of CNY is exciting, I find myself reminiscing the good ol' school days. And I find that I missed a lot of things.

Thing I Missed:
1. Seong Yong's way of saying 'feeling'.

2. Chia Hui and Chang Yong's "Oo-Oo" of imitating a bird.

3. The frenziness that usually occurs now which involves decorating notice board and class for CNY.

4. The act of conspiring together and vote for certain people to be monitor, ass. monitor, bendahari and so on...

5. The chatter among classmates.

6. The sort-of off-key singing of "我爱的人,不是我的爱人!!" by Shu Wei and their gang.

7. The Kuala Krai slang of Wai Lok and Pei Chin gang.

8. The ridiculous antics of Keng Sheng.

9. The teasing of Zhee Shin by both Kok Yong and Yi Wen.

10. The gossiping.

11. The plotting.

12. The huddling around in groups with the guys and talking of *ahem* things.

13. The hidden competition of saying things which have double meaning. (Usually will always be heard by Yi Wen/Keng Sheng/Kok Yong as something 'qiao')

14. Mr Lim's face and voice teaching us Physics.

15. Mr Ng's shocked expression when the boys come in late and he says: "Olor...!!"

16. Ms. Lim's blushing face when Kok Yong shouts out his compliment for her dress.

17. The way me and Kok Yong always discuss about Ms. Lim's clothing. >_<

18. The childish bantering and joking around.

19. The sight of Chia Hui eating her food from tupperware secretly.

20. The sight of Khang Siang sleeping on table. (Without Yi Wen beside him...XD)

21. The asking around to borrow homework.

22. Canteen's Yong Tauhu and fried kuew teow.

23. Searching of toilet keys.

24. Studying in library with Ah Kheng and Mei Jiun them.

25. Jason's sarcastic remarks.

26. A lot of people's hugs. (Yi Wen, Zhen Jee, Pei Chin, Qian Ling, Chia Hui, etc.)

27. The molesting. O_O

28. Acting silly. (Like scolding at a wall for 5 minutes...=_=")

29. Korek secrets from people.

30. Laugh and joke together.

31. Watching Zhee Shin try to collect class fee. (Which usually involves a lot of high pitched shouting which damage ears.)

32. The obtaining slip from guru bertugas to leave early.

33. The shouting around and grabbing of newspaper.

34. The high demand and circulation for '学海'.

35. The borrowing of stationary in the class.


Well, that's all I could think about. I will add some more if I think of it...>_<

Happy Chinese New Year everyone~!!!

Wednesday, January 6, 2010

New Post...?

I haven't been updating this blog since last year's August. And since a particular whiny cat and my lovely third wife Zhen Jee asked me to update, so here I am.

For this new year post, I am going to write a list of "10 Things You May Or May Not Know About Me"~

1. I hate the Twilight saga, books and movies included. Particularly I don't get the rave over Robert Pattinson's bird nest hair and Taylor Lautner's so called 'hot-bod'.

2. I do needlework. I don't think a lot of people know about this. I don't look like the type I think. But I have nimble fingers and love doing cross-stitch, which is very easy. A lot of people think it's hard but it really isn't.

3. I hate those movies with the title like "XXXX Movie". Example: Scary Movie, Disaster Movie, Date Movie etc etc. Although the minds behind such crude and mundane movie plots have recently gotten creative with other titles such as "Meet The Spartans", I still find the movie and plot and dialogue and...Oh who am I kidding, the WHOLE thing is just like a pile of crap. Yeah, crap, as in SHIT. So sue me if I don't share your sentiments.

4. I am a supporter of homosexuals rights, although I am straight. I think there's nothing wrong in people loving other people and I can't fathom why some think it's wrong to love. And besides, some who say that it's wrong because God condemns it is plain bull. If God is Almighty, then he wouldn't have made a mistake in creating homosexuals. That's how God wanted them to be I guess. I am not religious at all so I won't continue this rant, just expressing some opinions.

5. I collect notebooks. It is a weird hobby of mine. But I don't collect normal boring notebooks, I collect pretty, beautiful or meaningful ones. Some will have colourful covers while others will have well designed pages. Some have both of these combination and those are really hard to find. Maybe someday I will upload pictures of the notebooks I collect on FB or here. Depends I guess. But back to the topic, I now have maybe about or over 30 notebooks collected~>_<

6. I don't really like listening to hip-hop or altogether too loud and rock music. That's why I listen to Mix Fm I guess. A lot of people that I know are listening to Hitz Fm and some always ask me why I listened to Mix. Well frankly, it's the type of music they play which makes me made this choice I think. MIX is more for me, and I can't listen to HITZ at all. Sometimes I will get a bit irritated when people who are listening in to MIX with me suddenly says something like: "Woah, this channel got play such modern songs one ar?" God, I feel like bashing them in the head for their way of thinking and one-tracked mind. MIX actually plays a nice mix of songs, mostly pop, and none too rap-y or rock-y for my taste. Don't get me wrong, I listen to all genres of music, I do listen to some rock like Muse and Nickelback and Daughtry and so on. It's just HITZ isn't for me.

7. I love Studio Ghibli movies and Joe Hisaishi, the composer for the music of these movies. A lot of my friends don't really know the movies, but I have been watching Totoro since I was small and had been hooked on ever since. The music I only learned to admire when I was older, and I have to say its absolutely breathtakingly beautiful just listening to one of the pieces. One of the reasons I love the movies is how thought provoking and simple it is. No catchy phrases, simple dialogues, wonderful artwork and yet, it manages to bring out pure magic. Some people don't understand it though, they think it's just cartoon and find it boring. I find this pretty sad. Sad for those people who can't appreciate such work or sad for the movie unable to get through their mind I don't know, but I don't think I will ever be un-fascinated by them though. Once, when I was playing Joe Hisaishi on my car radio, someone told me that it was plain weird and creepy. I still feel offended. You can listen to people shouting all day long yet you can't appreciate a simple piano with orchestra piece? What is the world coming to? But maybe it's just not their thing. For those who are interested in Joe Hisaishi's pieces, The Legend Of Ashitaka of Princess Mononoke is a good piece to start on. It is a thoroughly magical song.

8. I am a lazy person. I love to procrastinate. Which is not something good. Look at how long I took to update my blog! Haha...But for my new year's resolution, I will TRY to not be so lazy~Do you think I will succeed though? Honestly, even I myself don't know. But some things are worth procrastinating right? There's a beauty in everything, as how I like to delude myself...O_O

9. I love Korea and Japanese songs. My recent addiction is Super Junior. I keep playing their songs over and over again. And my playlist is a huge mixture of english and japanese songs. In fact, I don't really listen to that much Chinese songs...>_< So whenever someone asks me about the new song that is playing on My fm, forgive me for not knowing a clue about it.

10. I love my cats.

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Okay, so technically, that is something which I think everyone knows about, seeing that one of my friends said, if someone doesn't know I like cats then they definitely don't even know me. I like cats. And I love my cats. That is the first thing that one might pick up on me at first. =D

But since I ran out of things to write I just decided to write that. Haha. I think this post has been long enough, and for anyone who read through the whole of my self absorbed rant, thank you very much yo~!

Until next time then, which I hope will be in the near future~XD