Tuesday, June 17, 2008

"PITCHAR" YOUR HEAD~!!

If you haven't read our dear Miss HengYiWen a.k.a Mrs Tan a.k.a Ah Miao's blog, then there is a very high possibility that you won't understand what I am about to say. So, if you are interested, you may go to http://sebastian-crabby220.blogspot.com to go and read her post on "PITCHAR!" first.

Anyway, as I am saying...It all happened last Thursday. It was Chemistry and our dear teacher was explaining about mass spectrometer when suddenly Miao poked me and ask: "How the gas become ionised har?" So I explained to her, trying to use the most simplest words she could understand. When I said: "....And the gas now bombarded by electrons and will go 'PITCHAR!!' and become positively charged lor..." The word 'PITCHAR!!' was said while my hands are doing violent gestures of things splitting up...And guess what?! The moment I finished that word, I saw Miao laughing so violently I thought her chair was going to break...(Mind you,it's a plastic chair...) When I asked what was so funny, she said the word 'PITCHAR' was so un-scientific and so un-adult...And then, she go and sebar the information and even write in her blog bout this thing!!! Now everybody knows me as 'PITCHAR'...My name has officially changed from Lee Hsieh Yie to Pit-Char!!! And everybody keeps calling me it too...Damn if I wasn't so good nature I will go and *#@$% Miao edi....>_<

But instead~As I such a good person mar...And Miao know karate-do mar...And I scare her hubby~a.k.a Mr.Tan will come KO me...I decide to take revenge on a low level...Dear Miao ar~You keep asking me write blog on you ar...You know onot, Thursday I edi want post liao de...But after reading your blog I decide to TORTURE you more by waiting for maybe another MONTH until I post~WAKAKAKAKA~Also....I think I will tone up a bit of 'bom-ing' you and ur hubby...Still got a few people in class don't know mar...Right??

Hehehe...Evil is good....Evil PITCHAR is even better...Hehehehe....

Thursday, June 5, 2008

LoaDs Of ThanKs~To YoU~

I had been feeling a bit down lately due to a few things that had happened and while I tried to conceal it, the emotions are bottled up to the brink as I tried to forget it all. But I guess the last straw came with that very bad day I had...And it all sort of spilled...Before I knew it I was releasing all my bottled up emotions in tears....I was down, sad and depressed. I really hate myself when I am like this...So uncertain and without courage...But hey, I am just human right?

Anyway, I am really grateful for my parents...They thought it was because of failing to get the scholarship that I was deeply upset...Although that was one of the reasons...But it wasn't the ultimate reason...It was just a trigger to push me over the edge....But even though they didn't know the whole story, they could sense that I was very upset. And guess what...My mother hugged me and not long afterwards, my dad opened the door and asked if I was alright and proceeded to cheer me up and encourage me...It really made things feel a lot better....Like I said...I could really feel their love to me and I really was very grateful...But I was also thoroughly embarrassed too...Haha...

And to you, that person which I so terribly disturbed in the middle of the night...Thank you...Really thank you..I was just so upset that I guess I couldn't think rationally...And the first person that came into my mind was you...You listened me out and helped me out....I am embarrassed to be saying this but the sound of your voice really helps me to loosen up and then let everything out...It really made me feel better...Looking back...I found that this wasn't the first time I called you in such an unceremonious fashion (In sobs and tears), and every time you helped me feel better...You are really such an amazing friend in this way...So, thank you...Really thank you very much....And about the thing you ask me bout that person....I really want to try...I will take your advice and will try work things out between me and him de~Cuz sometimes I do miss him too...Haha~Anyway, I am back and up again thanks to your support~Also, I don't know if I can look you in the eye the next time I see you...Ugh, you have already seen every weak part of me....And that is really embarrassing....>_<

But what must be said will be said...And don't say that I am mushy or rou4 ma2 nuh~Thank you. Really thank you my dear 'wife'....I really really miss and love you to bits and pieces....Really de. And to my parents...Even though you will never read this...Which I intend to make sure of...A big THANK YOU to both of you~

~From an embarrassed, grateful and feeling like want to write mushy things like 'Love you' and 'Miss you' de "husband " and daughter~

Wednesday, June 4, 2008

~LOVE~

Here I am, in front of my computer, staring at the monitor as I tried to type the second part of 'My Family'. But I haven't even got to the fourth line when I gave a frustrated growl and deleted everything. I just don't have the inspiration to write it now I think....So for my dear cat and housekeeper~Please be more patient as I figure out what to write...One of you did threatened to harm me if I din write good things about you.....And by 'you' I mean that silly gal who sit beside me during maths tuition and whose water bottle suddenly got a lot of ants during last Saturday~Yup, I mean YOU.

Anyway, I decided to write about something else instead~

Love. How much can you derive from this word? How many emotions, how many thoughts, how many actions that are caused by this simple word--Love. I bet not one person could answer me what love really is. Don't get me wrong now....The love I am speaking of is a universal kind. Family is a type of love. Friendship is a type of love. Romantic love is a type of love. There are many different types of love...More than one could imagine and it could be in different conditions and sight when you see it.

People do silly things for the sake of Love. They cry, they laugh, they get hurt over and over, they forgive, they forget, they sacrifice, they become selfish, they become a better person, they release their inner demons, they learn, they feel jealousy, they hate, they become silly, they become irrational.....A lot of things, that people would do for love. One couldn't possibly define Love, and I would not be as naive as that to try and figure it out. Love may be good but it can turn ugly too. It may be sweet but bitter too. It may heal but it may hurt. It may save but it may kill. It may help but it may destroy. It is like ying and yang at the same time. It is something neutral in this world that we all share. I think we are really all binded by it invisibly as we live on. As it really is everywhere. We can't see it, but we can feel it. Every time something makes me lose faith and hope, when I am sad and depressed, when I feel hateful and angry, it appears and reminds me of everything else that is worth smiling for, worth cheering up for, worth laughing for, and most ultimately, it is something that is worth living for.

If you are thinking how ridiculous I am sounding, I must say that I really feel so. Even for those who say that they don't need love, that they can live perfectly content with just themselves and then proceed to treat every single person like crap, is also in a form of love---They just contain all their love to themselves. It may be called selfish in a way but it is ultimately a form of twisted love. Yes, love can become distorted. It in itself is something that is pure and untainted, but the human heart which feels it and channels it can manipulate it to become something better or something bad. It depends. Family, Friends, Lovers.....All these kinds of love can become different and change with the passing of time. Sometimes it stays, but other times it slips away without you noticing, and sometimes no matter how hard you try grasping on to it, it will fall from your grasp and then you will find yourself falling hard. During these times, it is better to just let go and take a chance. It will just be more painful if you cling on to it desperately. When you know it's time to let go, just let go. But for other times, love reluctantly fades, it isn't disappearing, just fading, bit by bit....Before it is gone, one must first try to make things better, try to fix things up. During these times, take a chance to make a move, rather than stay silent. All of these apply to every kind of love, be it towards family, friends of lover.

For me, I must take a chance to say these things to some of my very close friends:

To you, whose love is unrequited, if you must, hang-on and you may try waiting, but try to look around once in a while, you might find something that surprises you, or someone.

To you, whose love is disappointed, move on, there is definitely someone for you. If the previous one wasn't 'The One', it's okay, with your qualifications there are definitely hundreds of people lining up to get a chance of being 'The One' of yours.

To you, whose love is blossoming, good luck, and cherish every single moment you have together, as it will all be the sweetest memories in your heart~

To you, who hasn't make a move, take a leap of faith for gods sake!! Are you going to stay in that corner in your shadows hoping one day he or she will notice you when you are not even in the light for him or her to see?!

To you, whose faith in love is lost, never give up, take a breather if you must but never immediately decline the opportunity to let Love near you~Rid yourself of those insecurities and have faith in yourself for once, and have faith in others to love you~

To both of you, whose love towards the other is mutual, get together already instead of asking me for tips~!!!>_<>_<>

P.S:I am going to revert back to my old cheery and carefree self once I finish posting this. I will deny to the end that I ever say I love you guys~I will say that this was just written in a spur of temporary madness and that I was on high fever by being bitten by the Love Bug...Normally I won't write so emo and mushy de things one....But for now, while I am half-mad and blur, I must say this again~Friendship Forever~I will forever love you all de~!!!No matter what happen~My motto is: Once a friend, Forever a friend, Even when you have become enemies!! O_O

Sunday, June 1, 2008

***HAPPY FAMILY***(Part One)

For this post,I am going to introduce my 'family'~BUT!!!I must warn you first if you want to continue reading this post...Because the aftershock of this post might leave you temporarily paralyze,your logical mind may shut down and you might be facing a huge confusion dilemma.

Ahem,let's get started then....

I have a very unique 'family'~"Unique" in other words mean that I am a person who has two wives,two daughter,one son,one pet,two affairs and one housekeeper. And there are other related relations which I will gradually introduce and explain. Now, to start, I will begin introducing my 'wives'.

~MY FIRST WIFE~
Actually, I had already been in the same class as her when I was in Form 2...But for some unknown paranormal reason, I failed to register her presence...I think I didn't even speak to her even once in Form 2...Now that's weird...Fortunately, fate brought us together back~We entered the same class in Form 4 and even sat beside each other. That's the beginning of our weird relationship~At first I was a bit wary of her but I must say we hit it off pretty fast...We manage to become close friends by the end of the year and I must say there have been signs of a bubbling 'family' feeling that she gave me whenever we are together.('Family' feeling meaning she gave me a warm and very gentle feeling that soothes you...=_=") Anyway, we managed to become 'married' and officially became 'parents' by the end of the year~Haha...She is a very cute and nice person. As a prefect, she is very responsible and also hates to see wrong doing. She is a worry-wart, she worries a lot....and also thinks too much, in my opinion, in some matters~Her ultimate flaw is this--She always takes the blame on herself when something goes wrong. I must say she is really the ultimate 'Super-Wife' that seems to be able to do a lot of things...She is very very good in Maths subjects and whenever I am stuck with a problem she will help me out~We sat together during Form 5 also and I really think this brought us a lot closer...Although there have been times when we almost got a 'divorce', we managed to last out and remained best friends~The only thing that I don't like her doing to me is by keeping some things from me~As I said, she worries too much and I must honestly say that is not very good for one's health...For the past two years I have been constantly trying to hook her up with a guy and I am glad that things finally turned out the way it should be~Really, even someone who is blind could taste the feelings they have for each other...=_="...Anyway, they are officially together and thus, my greatest rival is born....For my dear wife, if you have any chance stumbled upon my blog and read this, I must confess I am the one who had been helping 'my rival' by giving useful tips and advice on you so that your relationship can work out...Please don't sentence me to the couch~@_@ Haha...Anyway, she is currently studying accounting in KL and I must say I miss her to bits...I really do...So for my darling you, please come back soon so I can redeem my Mcdonald meal from you~Miss you lots and lots!

~MY 'SMALL' WIFE~
If my first wife was a super-wife that could assist her husband in everything, then my second wife is the "Dream-Wife"--The wife that every man would die to have:Gentle, Loving, Sweet, Funny, Sometimes a bit devilish, Obedient and all those properties that man deems a woman should have...But don't be fooled by her weak and fragile appearance! She could be extremely stubborn if she wants too and extremely fierce too...I have actually known her for quite some time already as we are both Choir members...Anyway, she became the president of the club during Form 4 and whenever she wants to scold the members, she doesn't just scold them in fierce tones, she uses the disappointed tone which is laced by cold fury and the words she uses just makes you want to dig a hole to hide yourself in shame and embarrassment...Yup, that's my scary small wife when she switches to Dark-Mode....Haha....She is also a prefect and good friends with my first wife...The two of them actually look a bit alike by the way...She is the perfect example of friendliness and harmony and peace....I think it must have something to do with how she looks and the way she smiles as she has this weird ability to pull people towards her. Hell, strangers come and talk to her for no reason at all!! But sometimes she pushes herself too hard...She has too strong a sense of duty and she also falls sick easily...You might say her body is a tad weak....We became closer during our Form 5 years I think....And she is the small wife as she only became my 'wife' during Form 5~She is going to KL to study too~Her ambition is to open a nursery or become a teacher....I am kind of hoping she would get the teacher post as she has already declared to us, her friends, that she will give nearly 100% discount for us if we were to put our children in her nursery in the future, and this will surely not make any profit to the nursery and will eventually lead to doom...So, to my darling wife: Gambate!!I hope you will get the teacher post!!

~MY DAUGHTERS~
Now, to introduce my daughters. The two of them are very good friends. And they both are extremely hardworking. They always are the two that finishes their homework on time and yet manages to do everything beautifully....You might say this is the ultimate reason why every teacher likes them both a lot~They are best friends but sometimes they get into arguments and as both are sometimes stubborn in their own ways, they decide to go into a 'Cold War' phase. This is where me and Huey Shenn come in, we run back and forth trying to make things right again...But sadly, we usually hold little influence...They normally just get back on good terms by themselves...My older daughter is more easy going and even though she seems to be the calm, reserve and quiet type, she could turn into quite a devil when she wants to...Just don't try to incur her wrath...My younger daughter is typically how the smallest daughter should behave. She could sometimes be a tad bit annoying and demanding but she is actually a very sweet person~Unlike her sister, she shows her emotion vividly. Trust me, you will know when you have made her angry, she enters into a ranting period where she just scolds you into pieces...Haha...But both of them are really treasures~And I am awfully glad to be their 'father'~>_<

~MY SON~

Hm...What should I say about him..? Or more importantly, where should I start? He was just recently upgraded to the status of my son...He was originally our family's bodyguard if I recall correctly~I only started getting more close to him during Form 5 and became good friends with him then~He is like the ultimate chatterbox of our class. You rarely see him at his own place. He would be around somewhere, chatting away and listening to other people's problems. I think he has the innate ability to mix well with people quickly and get them to talk to him~Which I really admire him for~Although he looks really carefree and seems to be the happy-go-lucky type, he is really quite sensitive and also tends to think too much and worry to much~(It seems as if the people around me are all worry-warts~>_<) But he is really a very nice person~Sometimes people just get the misconception of him and he is also very very stubborn when he wants to...And that makes it difficult to get an idea or thought out of him...I have a very vivid memory of him that is of an incident during Form 5 where he talks and daunts me into making a whole bottle of stars to give to someone in 5 sc 2...That was totally embarrassing as the other person is a male and I was already totally embarrassed but there he was making fun of me as if the whole world needed to know what I was about to do...Ugh...I swear that day took out almost all of my brain cells...He is a very very cheeky and playful person~We always suan each other...It has somehow become a weird hobby of ours~Also, he plays badminton very very well...I am surprised why he didn't enter the school team...Last time we played, he played with seong yong in a single match and he totally annihilated him...Which was a bit sad...His specialty is that he is very good in 'smashing'...In the total 21 hits, there must have been 15 that were smashes...He is now also in KL studying account and he calls me sometimes and we would talk for about an hour with his HAPPY line...But towards him I must say that I am really sorry for not taking his calls recently or sometimes didn't reply his sms but I really really still care for him a lot as a friend and I wish that he would be happy and healthy always~

That's it...Part one of my 'family'...I hope you aren't too bored by reading.....My writing skills may be a bit bad....And I apologize for that....I will be introducing more of my 'family members' in the next post~And for those who are a bit confused....I must declare that I am a girl...A GIRL....But who's to say I can't be a husband right??>_<